At least until after the SPM. I know, i know, it sucks. But perhaps allow me to explain?
I have five aims for this year, or five categories to acheive in and improve myself in:
- God - i aim to draw closer to Him and continue to explore my faith.
- Academics - As the other activities of my life is regulated on this aspect, performance in this area is more of a need than a want.
- Judo - If i miss any more classes my already lacking form will continue to fade. I cannot let my Osotogari development trail back and force me to start from scratch again.
- Piano - If i don't pass the grade 6 examinations i will go on a killing spree.
- Online activities - Like UGS, Janus and the like. I know, i know, i promised to finish Janus, but the problem is this area of my life seems to be eating too much of my time that all other aspects (with the possible exception of No 1) is suffering. I am suffering. And, besides, UGS seems to have hit that stage where it is self sufficient. Though not perfect i'm sure it'll last without Kenny and i constantly pushing and pushing and pushing. All it needs is that snowballing momentum required for insane growth. I'll leave that to Kubuk and Sam and a few others.
I have really enjoyed the online part of life this year, and hey, i won't be gone for long. Just for kicks, let me do one last tag:
6 friends- You once nearly broke my arm. I once injured your shoulder through 'impolite' throwing. You're always there for the teammates when we have particular stamina, technique or personal issues. Although you came from a modest background you've risen above it all in your grit, your determination and your will to succeed. You and i share a common frustration that is the inability to use our Tokuiwaza during competition. I wish you the best in whatever you do.
- You're in med school, cutting up cheap indian cadavers. Okay, you tell me, not yet at that stage. You're great with kids, you taught me how to control a crowd with a look and a few choice (very polite) words. You taught me to keep my cool in all situations.
- You are spread too wide, and too thin. You lack discipline, you sometime lie. And yet your unwavering loyalty to whatever relationships and friendships come your way is remarkable. You are starting to learn how to drive, and i believe you missed a lot of training sessions. I am still learning to appreciate you, a true friend.
- You and i have a rocky past. We both come from similar backgrounds, but both of us are as different as peas in a pod. You are observant and withdrawn, i am the self proclaimed rock star. And when we talk, our conversations range from deep Christian theology to basic psychoanalisis. For those of you who think we're geeks, you're right. Not. He represents St Thomas in the MSNS. I judo. 'Nuff said.
- I believe you never thought much of me in the early forms in St Thom. The language barrier sometimes seperates us from the lighter stuff, but we frequently share deep insights on life. You are highly melancholic, and an amazing leader. I am priviledged to work with you, and to give my opinion (sometimes - no, make that most of the time - daft). You probably know who you are.
- Last, but definitely not least, you are too far away, over seas and mountains (and God knows what else) to connect with. You taught me that Christian concerts rock. I wish it was just infatuation, and sometimes it is, but sometimes it is also something deeper. To quote a certain song by James Blunt:
'I can never be with you'
There. That's done.
Dove sono i bei momenti?
Consummatum est.
