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Friday, December 07, 2007

Tagged by Max (and others)

Rules: Do this tag and answer all the questions into your own blog. Delete one question from all the questions and add one of your own questions, make sure it is 20 question. Tag 8 persons.

Questions:
1. What was your dream when you were a small kid?
That I would be a scientist, and build Big Robots to kill other Big Robots. Or maybe it was a nuclear bomb. I can't remember.

2. What is the happiest thing in your whole life?
At my current hormonally charged state, many. I could break down at a movie, or a sunset, or when someone chokes me and I see reverse ferris wheels ...

3. If your life is a song, that song will be ...?
Sæglópur by Sigur Ros. Life, while beautiful, can also make no sense.

4. How should the world be seen?
Such an open-ended question. How should I answer?

5. What have you realized recently?
Against a left handed opponent it is safer to play one arm judo.

6. What is the bad habit that you cannot accept the most?
Procrastination. Which is me.

7. When you have something which you are unhappy about, what will you do?
Shout into the pillow. Then I write.

8. Are you afraid of losing?
All the time, until when it matters most.

9. Do you think that you feel helpless, or useless sometimes?
I am at that stage of human development where many would consider me a hormonally charged zombie. What do you think?

10. When you meet someone that you like, will you profess or hide your feeling?
I suppress, and then let it fade away.

11. List out 3 kinds of people you hate the most.
Those who cannot stand creative output from their peers, and do all in their power to rob them of such joy.
Those who believe happiness must be bought.
Those who are loud and empty.
But then I understand them, and I hate no more.

12. What is loneliness?
Imagine in your mind's eye the Earth. And then let your mind travel away from it, further and further away; past the asteroid belts of Jupiter, past the icy rings of Saturn. The earth is but a blue speck in the horizon. We live on that blue speck: we fight and kill and shout ideas at each other, and when the other side rejects our ideas we kill some more. That blue speck is loneliness.

13. Are you satisfied with your life now? Do you think any changes should be made?
Many. Ambition is, after all, an indicator of current failure.

14. When was the most recent time you felt touched?
I believe I was watching Hotel Rwanda. Halfway through the movie I found myself fighting a lump in my throat. Had I given in I would have burst into tears. Weird.

15. Where is the place that you visited and you felt the most beautiful?
The dojo.

16. Use a song to describe how you've felt recently.
Reckoner, by Radiohead.

Because we separate
it ripples our reflections
Because we separate
it ripples our reflections

Reckoner

Did I cater to all you
All your needs?


17. If you have one wish that'll come true, what is it?
That I can sit myself down and actually study.

18. Do you have anything to worry or to be scared about recently?
Ya think *points at blog post preceding this one*

19. If the World is going to end, what will you do?
I would either pray or go to sleep. It depends.

20. Your biggest fear now?
That Osotogari will fail me.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Collapse collapse

In three days I will be fighting national players in the Piala Presiden. To say I am scared is an understatement. They are Mongolian style players; we are Jap style. They are very strong. Malcolm has to lose 1 kg in that time, Tim has to rest his injured neck muscles, and I have to stop thinking so much.

Purple

It's a good thing I haven't been going everyday for the past two weeks - Sensei has been on a weight loss regiment for all those near the lower boundaries of their weight categories. Not that I might need it anytime soon: my new judogi is a sauna, and I frequently throw it off during training. It is bloody uncomfortable, bloody hot.

Red

The under-15s will be playing this Saturday. For them it is a team event. I've a feeling I'll be going to watch and get a feel for our opponent's technical range. Sensei says they'll be slower than us, but this is made up for by their immense strength. They are sports school boys, and they train everyday.

Yellow

It's at Chung Hwa No.1. If you want to see the Sarawakians get thrown us playing, come on Sunday. 9 a.m. Note to self: Lose the defeatist thinking, you idiot.

Blue

I am afraid.

Green

Did I mention that? I think I did.

I am afraid.

PS: Fitting, isn't it, that of all the colours kodokangear could pick for their shirts, Osotogari is green. Fate, I tell you, fate.